Two faced people...

I apparently work with some two faced people. I knew this a while ago, but I did not realize the extent of their behavior. I work with some people that will be nice to my face, joke with me, act like they care about my life and about me and my girls, and then when I am not around talk about me behind my back. I have been trying to figure out how I feel about this exactly.

I have decided that as long as I know I cannot trust these particular people, and as long as I don't confide in them, I don't care what they say behind my back. They feel as though I am one of the "boss's favorites." Well, I have seen favoritism shown to most of us, so I think in some ways we are all the boss's favorites. Some of my other friends say they are just jealous. I don't know if I would go with jealous. I have my own thoughts on the why of this situation.

I think that they don't believe that I am genuine in my nature. I think they believe that I am fake to a degree. I am not, but I think they believe this. I honestly think that their dealings with people in life make them not truly believe in many people. This is just my hypothesis.

It bothers me for people to not believe that I am genuine, because I am, and often my genuine nature gets me hurt....very often. But I cannot help who I am, and I like that I am trusting, and believe in the good in people. It does border on naive, but I am proud of who I am, I don't want to be someone else.

Oh well, like I say, "Either take me the way I am, or don't take me at all..."