At the risk...

of telling too much, or possibly scaring the hell out of people, I am going to be brutally honest for a second. I am a very introspective person. I sometimes lose myself in the monotony of the daily routine, but typically I am very in tune with myself and the world around me.
Yesterday, while talking to my cousin (who is like my sister) I went to a place mentally that I was not real happy about. We were talking about my insecurities and what drives them, and how I am trying to work through them. I over analyze things, incessantly, not everything, but when I pick something to think about, I THINK IT TO DEATH. And I argue inside my brain back and forth, the "sane, rational" part of my brain with the "insecure, irrational" part really go at it. Well, yesterday this made me so upset with myself it pretty much ruined my afternoon. So, I got out some of my meditation, philosophy, whatever books last night, and have decided to take action against the part of my mind that needs it.

I know, that almost sounds like I am waging war against my mind. NO, just trying to change some insecure thought processes. I know we all have insecurities, a great person pointed that out to me a little bit ago...lol...but I really want to work through this. I want to be the confident, together person I typically am...I want to feel that in every aspect of myself.

We are all works in progress, why else would we be on the planet...and I guess I feel as though I have been caught up in things and stopped working on me.

Okay, so hopefully this hasn't sounded too insane...lol...just insane enough. I have baggage, not big Louis Vitton luggage size baggage, more like a tote from Target size baggage...lol...but it is baggage nonetheless...and something I am working on...